A summary of my week

This week has been a stressful week for me. The main thing I worry about is my work. I have been delaying the job for one week. Although my boss did not say much about the deadline, I still feel guilty over my lost of credit to my boss. I have promised him to hand in one of my submission on last Wednesdaybut I fail to do so. Since I start the job, I pray that God will let me be a great helper to my boss. But now it seems that I am a big burden to my boss. It has been 3 weeks now but I still struggling with only one project. Whenever I meet difficulties in my current project, all my past failure in my previous work will appear in my mind.

However, thank God for His faithfulness, He helped me to complete the project by today and I am learning new software to prepare myself for the next project. I am quite nervous and afraid that I will not do a good job for God. I have less confidence in this new project.

The rest of the days were quite ok. I manage to watch the movies "The Secret" with some of the brothers and sisters in the church. Personally I love the story and the plot very much. I think Jay Chou has the potential to be a good movie director.

Just now during the time of CG, I actually want to share something about the salvation of our people around us. But I did not have the courage to share it out. I am afraid that I will say the wrong thing and made the whole atmosphere become very weird. After the CG, I felt a bit down because of this. I kept asking myself,"Why I don't have the courage and faith to say it out? What happen to me?". But I know that I cannot let this negative thoughts dwell into my heart. I must overcome it by the power of Christ.

Saturday evening I have a gathering with some of my secondary school friends. It is at Coastal Sand in Pasir Ris. Actually I am quite reluctant to go. This is because I do not have the courage to face the question like, " How have you been doing? What is your salary? Did your boss increase your pay? When will you get married? When will you get your 1st house?" I know that it is not biblical to think lowly upon myself. But I really don't dare to face them because I am so called "Insignificant" to them. During the praise and worship time, I pray to God and asked God what to do in this situation. God speak to me that, "Remember you are the servant of Christ." at that time I did not understand why I have this impression. Just now I read devotion and this verse got my attention. It is Galatians 5:13, "For you have been called to live in freedom – not freedom to satisfy your sinful nature, but freedom to serve one another in love.” Is that God wants me not to think too much about my "insignificant" among my classmates but "to serve them in love"? I believe it by faith and I want to apply it during my meeting with them.

In conclusion, indeed in a lot of areas I need God's love and strength to help me to deal with. I really have not much confidence to face the challenges in my life. Pray that I am assured by my identity in Christ and let me trust in Him more and more in overcoming those obstacles.

NB party during National Day

Dear all,

We will be having a New Believers Party for Yanting, Joanne and Xunhao this Thursday afternoon. We are meeting 230pm at outram mrt and will be eating at a number of places at chinatown area. We can invite friends to join us too. It is something like a matthew party with a mini celebration for the NB in the evening. I have invited Guobin and waiting for his reply now.

Another thing to note is that the donation card is due this Sunday. Please bring the donation card with the money and pass to me this Sunday. Thank you.

My trip back to Malaysia ( August 2007)

1. Thank God that my sister is being sowed by her Christian friend in KL! She gave my sister a gospel movie as her birthday gift.

2. The relationship between my parents still stagnant. I pray that God will help to reconcile both of them.

3. My dad has been asking me to tithe less to the church and save more money for future use. I pray that God will help my family financially as my dad is not earning much and me myself save a little bit of money every month. I pray that all of my family members will not have any major illness or any tragedy happen which will cause a lot of money.

4. The trip has been quite ordinary and I did spend some time with my family. Thank God that my mum did ask me something about Bible. She has read an article talking about one ex-criminal who confess and repent and follow Christ in the prison and he become a counselor when he get out from jail. She wondered why Bible so powerful that it can change a person. I pray that God will show her the reason and show her that He loves her very much.

5. For myself, I have been strugglling throughout these few days. I have a deadline to meet on next Wednesday. So pray for me that I will get the help from the Lord and complete the report by Wednesday. Pray that I will focus on the Lord rather than the deadline itself.

Change of venue for cg

Dear all,

River valley ministry house is not available for cg this friday as other cg is using. We have changed the venue to a room in Joy Fellowship, a church somewhere in outram. Let's meet at 7pm outram mrt this friday and go there together. In case some of you are going there directly, the address is 21A/B Keong Saik Road.

Those interested in badminton can come and play this Sat evening at sports school. We will be there from 530pm onwards in sports school. We can invite friends who came for the previous 2 ESS and friends who are interested in playing badminton.

(korean song) kiss

My Updates...

News Alert! - I have been excused from my reservist training. But the situation leading up to such an arrangement is nothing short of being controversial. I admit that I was too rash and made a bad decision.

Seems that I can't do anything right these days. Been rather troubled by my responses to things around me.

1. Realised that I cannot cope with the onslaught of things at work. The schedule is tremendous. SOO revealed a lot of my incapability to multi-task and helped me appreciate the strengths of others much better.

2. I realise my greed in wanting to do everything well. So much that I expect a lot more from myself and in the process, disappoint myself when I fail to do things well. Perhaps I need to learn to focus more on what I do best first.

3. The reservist experience has been cut short by my careless assessment of the situation. I think that I have been too accustomed to comfort and as a result, dread going back to camp to do all that I used to do. I don't know what came over me but I am shocked by my own insistence to exercise my "right" not to go outfield because of my assumed PES status requirement. Looking back, there is nothing but regret and guilt that I have presented a very bad image as a child of God. The numerous pairs of eyes that witnessed my nonsense must have been very shocked.

4. My ability to relate to the general group is really far from ideal. Being a higher ranked officer made me more alienated than ever. Throughout this incident, I realised how immature I have been in handling the responsibilities presented to me. I also found it hard to engage myself with the general group of people. I can't hold up a decent conversation and the general spirit I present is one of tiredness and negativity. There is nothing postive from me at all. It was a grave mistake to go to camp without preparing myself mentally and physically. As I left the camp this morning, I felt so small, so insignificant because I have contributed nothing to this team even though I was to have played a very important role if I stayed on.

Its an uphill task ahead to recover from it all. School is back. I will need God's grace as much as ever.

CG this Week 21st JULY

Hi all!

This week's CG will be on Saturday 21st July.
Time: 2pm
Venue: Joel's house
Blk 968 Hougang Ave 9 #07-626 Singapore 530968.

How to get there:
For those who are unsure how to go, meet 1.20pm at Ang Mo Kio Mrt station. ( when you come out of AMK station, turn left and you will see a bus stop, take 88 and after around 10mins, you will pass from a long row of industrial estates . Alight at the first blocks of HDB flats that you see after the industrial estates. Cross the overhead bridge beside the bus stop and you will see Joel's flat.

If you are intending to go on your own, can ask Joel for directions. The other buses that go to her house are 72, 325, 156, 43, 854, 70 and 103.

Maybe those who are meeting at AMK can reply this blog so you will know who you should be waiting for? He Bing and Yuanxiang I believe will be meeting at AMK?
GQ will go on your own since you near to her?

Saturday is actually Joel's brother's birthday and they are having a celebration in the evening. So we must not be late so that CG can start and end on time! If not we'll end up celebrating with them! haha.. :p

Perhaps we can get a card for her brother and just wish him happy birthday? Huanjie can you help us with this?

Liyi, you'll be back right? Yeah! Glad to have you back to join us! hehe..

Pray for me that my work will not drag on Saturday so that I can be on time!

Prayer requests

Hi brother and sisters, please sms me any prayer requests that you have. i would like to pray for you all daily :)
Take care!

People Need The Lord

Another version! With one more song at the end. Hope you are able to watch. God bless! =)

My friend's Janet Wedding.

30 June 2007 was a special day to my friend, Janet. She got married with her husband, Hsin Wen on that day and she invited me to her wedding dinner in Orchard Parade Hotel.

I knew this friend since 2nd year in NTU. We studied together and we went through a lot of up and down together. She always shared her testimony to me. She always prayed for me and gave me a lot of encouragement. She is a sister-in-christ who always trust in God for everything she has or going to have, including her charming husband:) Her faith in Jesus amazed me a lot and she has been a good example of christ follower to me.

I wish her all the best for her marriage with Hsin Wen.