Oral passage

Interesting passage...

几年前, 在一间大学的毕业典礼中，可口可乐的经理说了一段有关工作与生活的话：

"想象生活是一个比赛，你必须同时丢接五个球，这五个球分别是：工作、家庭、健康、朋友以及精神生活，然而你不可让任何一个球落地。你很快就会发现工作是一个橡皮球，如果它掉下来，它会再弹回去，而其它四个球：家庭、健康、朋友以及精神生活是玻璃制的，如果你让这四个球其中任何一个落下来，它们会磨损、受损，甚至会破裂， 而一旦落下，它们将不再和以前一样。

　你必须知道这些事而在生活中设法求得平衡，但要怎么做呢？不要认为你应该与其它人做比较，因为每个人都不同 ……因此每个人都是独特的。

5 people you meet in heaven

Hi all, had you all heard of this book? I have found this movie in youtube. Sit back, relax and enjoy:)

Links:
http://www.youtube.com/user/SupportiveKrew

you can get the movie from this link. Tuesday with Morrie is inside as well!

Are you a right brain or left brain?

Very interesting... try it

http://www.news.com.au/dailytelegraph/story/0,22049,22535838-5012895,00.html

can u switch the dancer at your will? :)

Effectiveness??

Today I was thinking ( No worry, I do my work as well) one question:

1) Does effectiveness mean you must do thing fast? If I do thing slow, can I do it effectively at the same time?

Never give up

What a blue day.........

Today I thought it will be another ordinary day for me. Like normal day, I rush the drawings to my senior today. Suddenly in the afternoon, my boss asked me to go to site together with him. We went there at around 345pm.

My boss dropped me at the site and he went to another site to have meeting. I just sat down and sort out the things that I have not done at site. I wait from 4pm until 630pm then my boss come. He just came in and see my site record. Then he asked me some questions. After that we had a short site visit.

During the site visit, he inspect quite a few places and asked me some questions again. I hardly answered all of them because I am not familiar with the drawings and site condition. He on the spot taught me how to inspect the work at site and check the critical section.

After that, it was around 715pm, then we go back to office. Along the journey from Tuas to Bukit Merah. He started to give some comments about my performance over the past two months. I summarize below:

1) My performance has not been satisfactory over the past few months.
2) He describe me as a person not very proactive in my work. I have been very slow in doing my work.
3) He gave some comments about my site record and my supervision work at site. He disappointed at my performance as I do not know how to keep a proper site record. When I check the work of the contractor, I did not check the critical one and not able to rectify the situation immediately.
4) He also said that as a design engineer, I should have the ability to make decision and able to produce the thing. If meet difficulties, I should seek help through do some studies and ask around.But I do not meet all these requirement.
5) He asked my past experience in CPG and try to want to know what I have learnt. I cannot even give him a proper sentence to describe what I have learnt from there.

I praise God that he let me know what is my weakness. I thank God that my boss said he hope to see me improve and he said I am hardworking but work too slow.

I understand that his stand as a boss surely my performance made him unhappy. This is not the first time I face these comments. Eleven months ago, my supervisor in CPG has made this comment to me. I am undecisive and wait other people to spoonfeed me.The people at site give me a nickname "blur king" behind me and my ex-boss know about it. God, what happen to me? am I really that non-proactive? Lord, what should I do so that I can be more proactive? Why all the times my works brought me a lot of comments that hurt me? I tried my best to finish my work but what I get is the comments that mentioned above? What should I do Lord?

Joseph's life has been an encouragement to me

Recently I encounter one article regarding to life of Joseph, son of Jacob. Let me shared with you below.

“You meant evil against me, but God meant it for good in order to bring about this present result.” (Genesis 50:20 NIV)

Joseph’s life was anything but peaceful. It was complicated by youthful folly, broken dreams, and the mean-spirited actions of others. Sold into slavery by jealous brothers. Thrown into prison on false charges. Yet he remained a man remarkable for his lack of bitterness or regret, always seeing God as the “Great Engineer” behind even the worst of circumstances.

In a final confrontation with his brothers, he graciously noted, “You meant it for bad; God meant it for good.”

The theology packed in that statement is astounding. “God meant it for good” means:

1) You can accept the past – No sin, no action, no choice on your part is too big for God to handle – or too big to be worked for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28) Just ask Joseph! Better yet, ask his fearful and famished brothers, who were forced to rely on him for survival.

2) You can embrace the present – There’s no need to play the “what if” game. The past is gone, and no energy you expend will ever change it. The future is in God's omnipotent hands, so you’re free to focus on the present. Your job is to love God with all your heart, soul, and mind, trusting him to forgive the past and transform the future. Martyred missionary Jim Eliot once wrote, “Wherever you are, be all there” – not living in the past and not fantasizing about the future. God wants you in the present because that’s where his grace will flow.

3) You can look expectantly toward the future – Even if you make mistakes today, God still controls your future. Walking in the Spirit, you can live life to the fullest, unafraid of making mistakes and unconcerned that you may stumble into some terrible circumstance that takes you out of God's control. Even when things appear to be terrible, you can trust that God is working out some divine plan through you.

What does this mean?

· No matter how bad things get – God is still able to bring good out of it. Today, thank God that nothing – no disaster, no delay – is bigger that his ability to turn it into something good and godly.

· Thank God and let go – Thank God that he is sovereign over your past, your present, and your future.

§ Give God the circumstances, disasters, hindrances, hurts, and sins from your past.

§ Give God your current situation, your disasters, hindrances, hurts, and sins of today.

§ Praise God that he can work anything in your future for godly good, that you can walk in confidence that there is nothing anyone can do to you, or anything you can do that will be beyond the reach of God’s grace and redemption.

· Look for God’s hand – Walking by faith means you see God’s hand even in the most difficult of circumstances. You trust his ability and his willingness to transform the bad into godly good. God is not limited by people’s motives. In other words, it doesn’t matter why someone hurt you, God still can transform a deliberate, mean-spirited situation into something for his good.

· What will you allow God to change? – There it is: some situation, or event, or person in your life that, as far as you can tell, was “meant for bad.” How do you think God meant it for good? Ask God what he wants you to do with this situation (event or person). When he answers, do it.

Trip back to Malaysia ( September 2007)

I just came back from Malaysia. It has been another ordinary trip to me. Within my expectation, before my dad drop me at bus station this afternoon. Again he asked me to tithe less to the church. He said that reality is reality, if you earn less, how can you tithe 10 percent of your gross income. Like our neighbour, who is christians, they only tithe 100 plus ringgit to the church despite they earn 4000 ringgit per month? Son, you need to consider your family, your future, and you need to buy a house in Singapore eventually, so please be realistic. Consider my suggestion seriously....

Everytime I go home I will hear something like that from my father. This month, quite amazingly, I did not talk back to my dad. In my heart I know that he loves me, that's why he needs to persuade me to give less to church. Moreover, he thinks I spent too much time in ministry and neglect to meet up with my friends outside the church and visit some relatives in Singapore. I thank God that he reminds me of those issue. I think I really need to plan my time and resources more carefully. Thank God for Huanjie, he gave me a book talk about how to manage your resources effectively. Thanks brother.

Dear Jesus, I know that you have heard what my father said before I come back to Singapore. Lord, thank you for giving me such a good parent who care about me and love me so much. Lord, I know that you are not confined in 4 walls within Nexus Auditorium. Lord, you are in reality and you are with me always until the end of time. Lord, thank you for giving me a peaceful heart to accept what my father said to me and what he reminds me. Lord, help me to be a good earthly son to my earthly parent and Lord, help them to see my decision and my conviction to give to you faithfully. Lord, I know that you will provide whatever you think is enough for me. Lord, I believe that my faith in you is being tested at this moment of time. Lord, help me to remember your promise in Malachi 3:10. Lord, I believe that you will use me to be a great testimony in front of my family. Thank you Lord, I pray all this in your mighty name. Amen.

A little bit update about my life

The very first thing that I want to thank God is His answered prayer on last Monday. Last Monday morning I was quite nervous and afraid because my boss was going to send me to site to do some supervision job for one month.On that morning I pray to God and ask for His help because I still have a lot of work to do. If I was sent to site, I would have no time to do my office work already. After that, in the late morning, my boss suddenly told me that I did not need to go to site on that day, the date was changed to Thursday morning. I was so excited at that time and give thanks to God in my heart.

However, I was sent to site still. Personally I quite hesitant to do supervision at site. The reason I change my job is to avoid site work and concentrate my time and energy to learn design. The first two days there was quite uneasy, there were a lot of unfamiliar faces. Every faces looked stress and want to scold people at any time. The only good thing about site work is that I can off at 5pm daily. I thank God for that.

Over the weekend I carried a unhappy heart because of my site assignment. I know nothing about the cladding work and my boss wanted me to supervise the job. Somemore the contractor is very experience in this industry, surely I will be facing some pressure from them if I do not perform well. However, during the service, God impressed upon my heart and he let me recall what Boy has shared on Saturday. Boy has shared about the story of rose, which determine to be the best roses in the garden. God encourage me to perform my best wherever the position he put me in. I was so encouraged at that time and I gave thanks to Him again and again.

Today, my boss called me and ask me to back to office to rush up the project that I always mentioned to some of my CG bros and sis. Everything is quite ok but the deadline will be on Wednesday. I have confident that I can finish by that time. God, you are so wonderful to me. God, help me to give thanks to you as well during the hard time. Amen.

A summary of my week

This week has been a stressful week for me. The main thing I worry about is my work. I have been delaying the job for one week. Although my boss did not say much about the deadline, I still feel guilty over my lost of credit to my boss. I have promised him to hand in one of my submission on last Wednesdaybut I fail to do so. Since I start the job, I pray that God will let me be a great helper to my boss. But now it seems that I am a big burden to my boss. It has been 3 weeks now but I still struggling with only one project. Whenever I meet difficulties in my current project, all my past failure in my previous work will appear in my mind.

However, thank God for His faithfulness, He helped me to complete the project by today and I am learning new software to prepare myself for the next project. I am quite nervous and afraid that I will not do a good job for God. I have less confidence in this new project.

The rest of the days were quite ok. I manage to watch the movies "The Secret" with some of the brothers and sisters in the church. Personally I love the story and the plot very much. I think Jay Chou has the potential to be a good movie director.

Just now during the time of CG, I actually want to share something about the salvation of our people around us. But I did not have the courage to share it out. I am afraid that I will say the wrong thing and made the whole atmosphere become very weird. After the CG, I felt a bit down because of this. I kept asking myself,"Why I don't have the courage and faith to say it out? What happen to me?". But I know that I cannot let this negative thoughts dwell into my heart. I must overcome it by the power of Christ.

Saturday evening I have a gathering with some of my secondary school friends. It is at Coastal Sand in Pasir Ris. Actually I am quite reluctant to go. This is because I do not have the courage to face the question like, " How have you been doing? What is your salary? Did your boss increase your pay? When will you get married? When will you get your 1st house?" I know that it is not biblical to think lowly upon myself. But I really don't dare to face them because I am so called "Insignificant" to them. During the praise and worship time, I pray to God and asked God what to do in this situation. God speak to me that, "Remember you are the servant of Christ." at that time I did not understand why I have this impression. Just now I read devotion and this verse got my attention. It is Galatians 5:13, "For you have been called to live in freedom – not freedom to satisfy your sinful nature, but freedom to serve one another in love.” Is that God wants me not to think too much about my "insignificant" among my classmates but "to serve them in love"? I believe it by faith and I want to apply it during my meeting with them.

In conclusion, indeed in a lot of areas I need God's love and strength to help me to deal with. I really have not much confidence to face the challenges in my life. Pray that I am assured by my identity in Christ and let me trust in Him more and more in overcoming those obstacles.

NB party during National Day

Dear all,

We will be having a New Believers Party for Yanting, Joanne and Xunhao this Thursday afternoon. We are meeting 230pm at outram mrt and will be eating at a number of places at chinatown area. We can invite friends to join us too. It is something like a matthew party with a mini celebration for the NB in the evening. I have invited Guobin and waiting for his reply now.

Another thing to note is that the donation card is due this Sunday. Please bring the donation card with the money and pass to me this Sunday. Thank you.

My trip back to Malaysia ( August 2007)

1. Thank God that my sister is being sowed by her Christian friend in KL! She gave my sister a gospel movie as her birthday gift.

2. The relationship between my parents still stagnant. I pray that God will help to reconcile both of them.

3. My dad has been asking me to tithe less to the church and save more money for future use. I pray that God will help my family financially as my dad is not earning much and me myself save a little bit of money every month. I pray that all of my family members will not have any major illness or any tragedy happen which will cause a lot of money.

4. The trip has been quite ordinary and I did spend some time with my family. Thank God that my mum did ask me something about Bible. She has read an article talking about one ex-criminal who confess and repent and follow Christ in the prison and he become a counselor when he get out from jail. She wondered why Bible so powerful that it can change a person. I pray that God will show her the reason and show her that He loves her very much.

5. For myself, I have been strugglling throughout these few days. I have a deadline to meet on next Wednesday. So pray for me that I will get the help from the Lord and complete the report by Wednesday. Pray that I will focus on the Lord rather than the deadline itself.

Change of venue for cg

Dear all,

River valley ministry house is not available for cg this friday as other cg is using. We have changed the venue to a room in Joy Fellowship, a church somewhere in outram. Let's meet at 7pm outram mrt this friday and go there together. In case some of you are going there directly, the address is 21A/B Keong Saik Road.

Those interested in badminton can come and play this Sat evening at sports school. We will be there from 530pm onwards in sports school. We can invite friends who came for the previous 2 ESS and friends who are interested in playing badminton.

(korean song) kiss

My Updates...

News Alert! - I have been excused from my reservist training. But the situation leading up to such an arrangement is nothing short of being controversial. I admit that I was too rash and made a bad decision.

Seems that I can't do anything right these days. Been rather troubled by my responses to things around me.

1. Realised that I cannot cope with the onslaught of things at work. The schedule is tremendous. SOO revealed a lot of my incapability to multi-task and helped me appreciate the strengths of others much better.

2. I realise my greed in wanting to do everything well. So much that I expect a lot more from myself and in the process, disappoint myself when I fail to do things well. Perhaps I need to learn to focus more on what I do best first.

3. The reservist experience has been cut short by my careless assessment of the situation. I think that I have been too accustomed to comfort and as a result, dread going back to camp to do all that I used to do. I don't know what came over me but I am shocked by my own insistence to exercise my "right" not to go outfield because of my assumed PES status requirement. Looking back, there is nothing but regret and guilt that I have presented a very bad image as a child of God. The numerous pairs of eyes that witnessed my nonsense must have been very shocked.

4. My ability to relate to the general group is really far from ideal. Being a higher ranked officer made me more alienated than ever. Throughout this incident, I realised how immature I have been in handling the responsibilities presented to me. I also found it hard to engage myself with the general group of people. I can't hold up a decent conversation and the general spirit I present is one of tiredness and negativity. There is nothing postive from me at all. It was a grave mistake to go to camp without preparing myself mentally and physically. As I left the camp this morning, I felt so small, so insignificant because I have contributed nothing to this team even though I was to have played a very important role if I stayed on.

Its an uphill task ahead to recover from it all. School is back. I will need God's grace as much as ever.

CG this Week 21st JULY

Hi all!

This week's CG will be on Saturday 21st July.
Time: 2pm
Venue: Joel's house
Blk 968 Hougang Ave 9 #07-626 Singapore 530968.

How to get there:
For those who are unsure how to go, meet 1.20pm at Ang Mo Kio Mrt station. ( when you come out of AMK station, turn left and you will see a bus stop, take 88 and after around 10mins, you will pass from a long row of industrial estates . Alight at the first blocks of HDB flats that you see after the industrial estates. Cross the overhead bridge beside the bus stop and you will see Joel's flat.

If you are intending to go on your own, can ask Joel for directions. The other buses that go to her house are 72, 325, 156, 43, 854, 70 and 103.

Maybe those who are meeting at AMK can reply this blog so you will know who you should be waiting for? He Bing and Yuanxiang I believe will be meeting at AMK?
GQ will go on your own since you near to her?

Saturday is actually Joel's brother's birthday and they are having a celebration in the evening. So we must not be late so that CG can start and end on time! If not we'll end up celebrating with them! haha.. :p

Perhaps we can get a card for her brother and just wish him happy birthday? Huanjie can you help us with this?

Liyi, you'll be back right? Yeah! Glad to have you back to join us! hehe..

Pray for me that my work will not drag on Saturday so that I can be on time!

Prayer requests

Hi brother and sisters, please sms me any prayer requests that you have. i would like to pray for you all daily :)
Take care!

People Need The Lord

Another version! With one more song at the end. Hope you are able to watch. God bless! =)

My friend's Janet Wedding.

30 June 2007 was a special day to my friend, Janet. She got married with her husband, Hsin Wen on that day and she invited me to her wedding dinner in Orchard Parade Hotel.

I knew this friend since 2nd year in NTU. We studied together and we went through a lot of up and down together. She always shared her testimony to me. She always prayed for me and gave me a lot of encouragement. She is a sister-in-christ who always trust in God for everything she has or going to have, including her charming husband:) Her faith in Jesus amazed me a lot and she has been a good example of christ follower to me.

I wish her all the best for her marriage with Hsin Wen.

prayers

I shared this with some but not all so decided to share in this blog.

For 3 years in the school, sometimes I feel that as child of God, I should do something about getting fellow bros and sis in the school to pray and fellowship... however, I did nothing... felt guilty at points of times for not obeying the HS promptings...

Well, seems that God got fed up of promting of me to gather fellow Christian staff to start a fellowship group... He sent a newly joined teacher to do that job... That teacher, lets call him KH, is very on... he came to me and ask whether wanna pray together last week... with another fellow colleague... wow... of coz... its high time we come together to pray and fellowship... its a good start :) and we agree to come to pray and fellowship at least once a week :)

today, KH asked us whether we wanna go for a prayer walk in the sch... wow... that never came to my mind... though i very tired, i think its important to pray for the sch and the students thus agreed to go... after the prayer walk, i began to see both these bros in different light... they really have a heart to bless the sch, the students and a strong desire for them to come to know God... and they were sharing with me that they have targetted and are reaching out to an untrained teacher... i am very glad to be in such company and pray that together, a revivial in the sch will come...

come and join us in prayers... pray that the sch will be rein and rule with God's presence and laws... pray that the students, the future pillar of the society will realise that they need God in their lives, will repent of their sins, will give their lives to Jesus and will live Godly lifes that would go out and make more disciples of all nations...

pray for me to grow as well... to grow to have a stronger burden for the lost and to obey more to God and not let my inadequacies hold me back...

yes... Jesus, help me to know and trust you more

People Need the Lord

A beautiful song Peiru and I heard during the wedding of Adam and Grace. May the lyrics of the song be our prayer. =)

wonderwoman in china

WE should learn from her. THe spirit of never give up and live wonderfully despite of her "handicap"

Church camp 07

Malacca 2007

Photos from Malacca! It was a great camp for me. :)

Photos from Italy/France

my photos from the trip. only 500 photos. enjoy slowly!

4 memory verses for July

1 July - 8 July: "For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love." 2 Peter1:5-7

9 July - 15 July: "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others." Philippians 2:3-4

16 July-22 July:"When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom." Proverbs 11:2

23 July-29 July:" Do not rebuke a mocker or he will hate you; rebuke a wise man and he will love you. Instruct a wise man and he will be wiser still; teach a righteous man and he will add to his learning. " Proverbs 9:8-9

The verses are cumulative, meaning we will be able to memorize 4 verses by end of July. Remember to memorize word for word and also the verse number. We will do a sharing of our insights into the verses when we gather every Sunday. This Sunday, Jianming is meeting the unit at 930am at Singtel comcentre to have a prayer meet. We can have our sharing after that over breakfast.

msn with my sister

Yesterday I had an conversation with my sister over msn. All the time I seldom contact my sister or call her up. Thank God that yesterday night she actually took the initiative to talk to me.

She shared with me that she is undergoing a tremendous stress in her internship for her tertiary study. She said her supervisor is very strict and always say something sarcastic to her. At the same time, she also got quite average results from previous semester, but her classmates got very good results. That made her very sad and worry as well.

My sister has never shared such a thing to me before. Thank God for the msn with her. It made me understand my sister more. Next weekend I will back to Malaysia. I pray that God will use me to take her more closer to him and our relationship will grow well.

Something that I went through today

Today my senior asked me not to leave again. He asked me to stay in this company for the project sake. However, for me I can foresee that this project will have a lot of complicated thing happen and most of us do not have the experience to tackle this problem, so I decided to leave earlier.

I also want to give myself a chance to do design work. Although my senior said I won't have the feel when doing the design work because I do not have site experience. I still want to give it a try before I decided to change to another line if I want to.

I also think of my ex-boss in previous dept. Although he said something hurt to me before, which I still feel the pain in my heart when I think of it, I still want to thank God for him because he has broadened up my mind and motivate me to learn more. I feel amazed by thanking him in my heart since I only remembered how he hurt me. It must be God who do the work in my heart.

Two years I have graduated and it seems that I have not settled down myself and know what I want, sometimes I feel quite sad over myself because I am not a good steward of God. Some of you even can sense that my mood is down through the sms I sent to you all. Think something really wrong inside my heart........

Combined cg this friday

Dear all,

We will be having combined cg with nic's cg this friday at ministry house 730pm.

We will be learning from the first lesson of word-centred church.

Do email me if you have any ideas to help the cg to be more word-centred, prayerful or outreaching. I will be announcing some plans for the cg at the end of the teaching on friday, so do give me your input by emailing to my yahoo account: hotimothy@yahoo.com or leaving comments in this entry.

one interesting verse I encountered......

I was reading one devotion just now. I think God wants me to think over one verse in that devotion:

1 Corinthians 15:10

- But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace to me was not without effect. No, I worked harder than all of them - yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me.

This verse seems easy to understand. But something has blocked my mind of think deeper about this verse......Need more time to think about this verse.

Something that I cannot forget until now

These few days I have not get over from some of my bad memories. Some very harsh comments from my boss especially kept disturbing me all the time. Actually I have been working for 2 years. Up until now the feedback from my boss is not very positive. It makes me relate back to the church camp teaching - be a useful person in your workplace.

I found that I am not a useful person in my workplace. I have been a burden to my boss. How can a person only bring trouble to his boss call himself "a useful person in workplace"? Even now in the office, I have to handle different critical issue at the same time, everybody asking me why am I so slow etc.....makes me feel that I am the culprit who delays the work, how I long for somebody in my workplace tell me, " Hey, Hoeping, you have done a great job!" Up until I have heard nothing about the comment like this.

I also blamed myself for not control my emotion well. I always show my bad mood on my face in public if something really bad happen to me. I don't know how to hide my emotion in front of people. I also cannot express well my thoughts to let other people know. I hate myself the most when people cannot understand how I feel and I simply cannot say them out in sentences.

I think I am a selfish person as well. I only care about how I feel and neglect how other people feel. I feel very miserable for this. I have let God down. I never apply what He said in the bible into my life.

I think that I am not a good example for brothers and sisters in Christ. My heart is filled with the negative thoughts and seems that I cannot get out of it. I only can pray that God will come and help me to overcome them........

Some thoughts about myself

In these few days, I kept thinking one question: How can I describe myself. After a few moments of thoughts, I think I can describe myself as below.

1) I am a inferior person. I love to compare myself with other people.

2) I feel very insecured when a stranger come to approach my friends. I am afraid that my friends' attention will be switched to that stranger.

3) I am a guy who is waiting for a girl to tell me that, "I love you."

4) I am a guy who don't like to jog, but love to walk.

5) I love to work in a stable environment.

6) I am a person who love to listen to instruction and do the thing. I don't like to lead the people because I don't want to take responsibility of making some bad decisions.

7) I am a person who is struggling with some bad habits in my life.

8) I love to serve people around me.

9) I love to play those sports that requires only one person. This is because I always become the loser when I play the games with other people, be it the badminton, chess, basketball, soccer etc...

10) I hope that I can own a house in Singapore. One of the room is a small library.

11) I love to share my struggles, views and thoughts with my friends. I always want to get attention from other people.

12) I feel that I am a failure in my life. My heart even now will affected by this thought.

13) I don't like to read newspaper, even I know that it is very important to keep updates with the current affairs.

14) I love to bully animals when I feel depressed and down.

15) I love to collect pens.

16) I don't like to buy clothes unless it is necessary.

17) I think that my hair is getting lesser and lesser and it will affect my relationship with my friends.

18) When I meet with difficulties in my life, I will choose to aviod it but not face it.

19) I don't like businessman, they only thinking about earning money.

20) I am not a dicipline person.

After writing down the thoughts, I think that I got many loopholes in my life. I am quite surprised that most of the things I wrote is very negative. But I still want to share them out as I think that this is my true self in my life. Only I surface them out can help me to overcome those negative thinking effectively. Jesus, I need your help again.......

Reflections and action points!

Dear all,

I am sure the adults church camp had been a memorable and impactful one for all of us. God has spoken to us individually during the camp and I will like us to do the following this week:

1) Spend one of the nights reflecting on the camp teachings and workshops, and write down your personal reflections and action points.

2) Pray through the points you have written down and ask God to help you apply His word in your life.

3) Bring the list of reflections/action points and be ready to share during cg on friday night, 730pm in ministry house.

We will also be talking about some action points as a cg, so if you have time for more reflections, do think about what we can do as a cg to grow together before friday.

"Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock." Matthew 7:24

My Hometown, My Home Country

First day back at home, I was greeted by the news of flood in KL. A few hours rain resulted in flood that came like a thunderflash. The city center was flooded, with a few underground car parks completely in the water. Then a few more places in KL were flooded as well, people were stranded, cars were immersed in water, 'crippled' with the engines dead. After the flood, the roads were covered with thick mud, ruining the image of the cityscape.

Second day at home, I was greeted by the news of robbery and gang rape. A couple was chased by a few robbers who attempted to collide with their vehicle, creating a deliberate accident and then robbed them, chased them over 30 km before eventually the victims's vehicle came to a halt. Then the guy was bashed, injured and the gal was gang raped. Police were nowhere to be found after they called the police. They were sent to the hospital by passer by. The hospital did not give immediate treatment, not until 7 morning.

Third day at home, another robbery and gang rape case, Oh my God!

Who is responsible for turning my hometown into such a sorry state? Who is responsible to turn my home country into a criminal haven? Honestly, I am extremely sick with the attitude of the police, and polticians who are not seriously dealing with the problems, give all kind of excuses to provoke the public and turn a deaf ear to all our critics.

Oh God, let me be the mayor of Kuala Lumpur! I can definitely do a better job than those politicians who waste time on spitting their saliva rather than taking practical actions. In heaven, I will complain these people to God for ruining my beloved hometown and making life in this country such a misery.

陳慶祥 阿牛 MAMAK檔

As a Malaysian, I must say amen to this song. Really illustrate the mamak stall in an interesting way.

愛是不保留

Great chinese worship song. enjoy:)

Healing Testimony

I was having a bad headache last Sunday and thought of going home after Sunday Service. But after service i got a lot of admin to do for church camp so thought that I might as well stay and complete all the things needed to be done. During the unit DMM in the afternoon, we prayed for one another and Tianlong prayed for me for healing and physical strength. After the DMM, I really feel much better and even went to queensway to buy the jerseys for the unit. God healed and energized me so much that after buying the jerseys, Jianming, peiru and myself went to ikea for dinner, and we fellowship until 10pm. Thank God for his healing power! =)

For the church camp goals, I am keeping it simple so that I can remember:

Personal - My contract with sports school ends in dec 2007 so I want to ask where I should go after that.

Spiritual - I want to ask God for greater faith to believe in Him in my work, ministry and family that he will use me for greater influence in these areas.

Social - To get to know Yuanxiang, Lydia and people in Nic's cg better over the church camp.

The rest of us can share the goals here as well since we did not get to share over lunch last Sunday. See you all on Thursday morning! =)

My church camp goals

Personal
- Grow the heart for missions ( short term or long term ) greatly.
- Increase my capacity of serving people.
- Manage my time and resources well.
- Cultivate my thinking habit.

Spiritual
- Grow in discipling myself in reading and understanding WOG
- Grow in faithfulness in whatever I do, espcially my career and my plan for missions.
- Grow in humbleness before God and my leaders.

Social
- Grow in the sense of belonging to CG, unit and even sub-d.
- Grow in affirmation for one another.
- Grow in intercede for one another.

Nicholas Teo Little Turtle MV

Very nice song. Enjoy!!!

Job Interviews

Interviews

Still want to give thanks to God for all the interviews so far despite being disappointed for my honours.

Few weeks ago, I was still complaining to a sister, “Why was I not shortlisted for any interview?” One of the brothers had already got a job and this posed a lot of pressure on me (yeah the bad habit of comparing with others is taking effect!).

But thank God my first interview came two weeks ago from ST Microelectronics. (Think I am not shortlisted for second round of interview). After that my second interview came when my professor forwarded my resume to Cal-Comp, a Taiwan-based electronics company. It was quite a coincidence. They were having campus interviews and a lot of graduates sent in their resumes to be interviewed. But I was called up by them to go for interview the next day. After their call, I received call from my IA company, asking me to go for interview the next day as well, and the timing clashed with Cal-Comp’s interview. I actually missed the call from my IA company, so I was not given a choice to choose the time. Oh no, both companies gave me one day notice, what the heck!

The next day morning, I went to Nanyang Executive Center to attend campus interview. Upon seeing the large crowd, I simply wasn’t feeling good. “So many people fighting for jobs with me, sigh…” I went straight to the Cal-Comp’s booth to ask if I could change my appointment time with them, handed in my resume and application form. Surprisingly, they asked me to wait for a while and separated my resume from the rest of the thick pile of resumes. After 10 minutes waiting, I was called in by a lady for interview. Later I found out that she was not assigned to interview those walk-in applicants, but because I was recommended by professor and applying specifically to a position, that was why my resume was separated and I got my turn so fast. She started with the standard question “Tell me about yourself.” When answering this question, I always highlight 3 strongest qualities of myself. However, during that interview, I talked about my interest in research. Then she followed on to talk about the responsibilities of that particular position in details, and asked me how I would deal with the problems. “This job is basically to research into some of the process problems that we are currently facing. How can you solve the moisture contamination problem in electronic devices. Do you have any experience?” I answered with my experience in projects and assignments and showed her my reports. Those reports were meant for my IA company’s interview and I really did not expect I would use them during the earlier interview. So lucky I had prepared them! The interviewer was excited and asked if she could have those copies of my reports. Of course I gladly gave to her. Even some figures in my final year project, such as the powder size of 193nm became important to her as I saw her writing down the details of my project, figures and key words. At that time, I felt so encouraged when the interviewer was so interested in me. The interviewer gave feedback to my professor that she found me good and able to apply what I had learnt in school. That was really an encouraging feedback.

After attending the Cal-Comp’s interview in the morning, I went for my IA company’s interview in the afternoon on the same day. There was nothing much to talk about it. However, I do want to give thanks to God, initially, two interviews clashed together but I managed to go for both and the interviews turned out well.

That night, to my surprise, I received an email informing to attend an interview from Taiwan Semiconductor Manufacturing Company (TSMC). Upon seeing that email, I jumped in joy. I applied to this company before the school exams, and it had been more than a month since then. I thought I was not selected for interview. I even consulted one of my professor if he found anything wrong with my resume. He replied me that TSMC was mainly looking for postgraduate students. Thank God so much I was the very few graduates selected!

Only one thing I wasn’t feeling good during the interview. I did not really answer truthfully to the following question.

Interviewer: I am sure that you did apply to other companies. Let’s say if you are offered a job from TSMC and another company at the same time, which one would you prioritize? Is TSMC your first priority?
Me: If I got any offer, I would discuss with my parents first.
Interviewer: But would you first prioritize TSMC?
Me: Can I clarify with you? The condition is that I got offer from two companies at the same time?
Interviewer: Yes, would you put TSMC as your first priority?
Me: ……Yes, TSMC is my first priority.

You could probably sense that I am quite reluctant to say yes to the interviewer’s question. I even felt that I was lying to that question. As a Christian, I try to hold on God’s teachings and apply them in real life. I expect myself to uphold my integrity and answer truthfully, not necessarily so honest that I don’t know how to use my words wisely. In the past, during my final year project, I was having such a hard time in dealing with the data and statistics I have collected from my experiments. Because of those statistics, I was bombarded by my supervisor with tough questions I could not answer. I felt so tempted to alter the figures, change the data to please my supervisor. But eventually I didn’t do that, for I know if I gave in to cheat this time, I would cheat in the future and slowly cheating would become an addiction that poisoned my character. So I did more experiments to confirm the data, or to get a new set of data, or to find evidence why the data were showing that certain trend. And thank God, I found theories to explain and convince both my supervisor and examiner.

Oops, think I was just diverted away to talk about my fyp. If I were to answer that question again, how would I answer it better and truthfully? I would probably answer,
“The job opportunity with TSMC is important to me, yes, it is my first priority, because of TSMC’s leading position in wafer fabrication, high-end technology in semiconductor. I think I can learn a lot of high-tech stuff from TSMC.” It is true that TSMC is leading in semiconductor industry. And the reasons I have stated, make TSMC the first priority. But when considering whether to accept or reject a job offer, will I consider those reasons? No! If those reasons are not to be considered, will I accept TSMC’s job offer above others? No! Wohahahaha!! What kind of logic is this? Let’s think the other way, if my consideration to accept job offer is whether the company is leading in the industry, whether they have high-tech, whether I can learn their high-tech stuff, then yes TSMC is my first priority. So I am stating the reasons that have the potential of making TSMC my first priority, but whether I prioritize those reasons in my consideration to take a job offer, that’s a different story.

So why is TSMC not my first priority? This job requires me to work in Taiwan. I have 3 years bond with Singapore government lah! There are of course other reasons, but I am not sharing here.

The final interview came from Singapore Technologies Kinetics. It was another blessing by God. I went to campus interview, and hoping to go for ST’s interview. But again, too many people were fighting for limited places. Not only materials engineering graduates, but also mechanical, and EE graduates. It was such a coincidence that I met one of the person-in-charge. We just talked for a few minutes and he found out that I am a materials engineer. Then he informed me that ST Kinetics had put advertisement on newspaper looking for materials engineer to do a study in polyurethane sandwich panel for food storage refrigerating system in transport trucks. He asked me for my name, email, phone number and later that day in the afternoon, he sent me the advertisement of the job position through email. Wow!! I can’t thank God enough. Why? So far as I searched for jobs, I searched through online, materials obtained from career fair and career talk (plenty of them and I have yet to read them one by one) but I simply missed out newspaper advertisements! Thank God that He arranged such a coincidental occasion to make the job opportunity known to me. I have a very strong feeling from this encounter – God made what I had missed to come back to me. I can be assured that He is in control. I don’t know if I will ultimately get a job offer from any of the companies above but I really want to thank Him for opening up all these opportunities for me.

He has certainly opened doors of opportunities for me. But that does not mean that I should stop relying on Him and go on my own way. I still need Him to do amazing things to open up doors for second interviews for me. As I am wondering, what it means to rely on Him, to trust Him? I mean, how exactly or what I have to do so that I am trusting Him and relying on Him? As I ponder, I contrasted my attitude in writing this article with the previous one. It was a big difference in attitude. I thank Him gratefully, amazed by His timing that things fell into the right place at the right time. However, in the previous article, I blamed Him for not answering to my heart’s desire. Thanking Him at a point of time, yet angry with Him at another. What an irony! How contradicting! I realized it was self-centeredness that had taken hold of me, I like Him when I get benefits from Him, angry with Him when I did not. This is not loving Him wholeheartedly, neither it is trusting and relying on Him. My entire focus is – getting what I want.

So perhaps the first thing I can do is to correct my attitude. I always ask, how exactly can I trust and rely on Him? I can certainly adjust my attitude by writing all these down as a reminder, not just something that slipped past my mind and disappeared the next minute.
I really wonder if I had been wasting time this 1 year and 9 months being a Christian, not learning His ways but fighting for my own interests. Or is it simply that I had forgotten, ignored Him at times when uncertainties seem overwhelming? If I had been wasting time, let me waste no more. If I had forgotten, let me be reminded. All it matters, is to correct my heart, my attitude, and come back to God if I had been straying away. I am confident, I will know how to follow His leadership.

I guess it’s time to reflect the past 9 months after my first anniversary, how I have grown spiritually. It would be a spiritual health check-up to see if I have grown fruitfully or lost in the wilderness.

As I wrote this article, the grudging attitude over my honours was replaced by gratitude. Have I not written this, I think I would still be angry and bitter. Indeed reminding myself of His goodness and focus on the great things He had done, my heart would not be completely occupied by anger and bitterness. Make room for his love and joy to fill me again. I do hope I can be consistent in my attitude towards Him, not just praising Him at good times and complaining Him at bad times. Focus less on my achievements, blessings but focus more on how to trust Him, depend on Him, then, I think, I would be more consistent.

Shortchanged?

I really don’t have the habit of writing down my feelings. A lot of times, as I find out, it is because I am lazy to do so. Now, without the habit, it makes me really difficult to put down my thinking process in a logical way and to explain with words.

Yesterday was a day of mixed feelings. I was battling my own emotions with reasons, I even attempt to cool myself down with what I can think in the bible. But after a while, I simply refused to listen to the small little voice, shut everything out and let my emotions burst.

The final result was out yesterday and I got second lower. That was not really surprising. I was prepared and aware that my first and second year results would make it hard to achieve second upper. But upon seeing some subjects, which I think I did very well, deserving A but was marked down to B, the fire of frustration burns furiously within me. Here is a list of subjects which I thought I should get better grades.

G140 Engineers and Society, expecting A but got B instead
LF81 French, expecting A but got B instead
G167 Engineering Chemistry, expecting A but got B instead
G161 Electronics, expecting A/B but got D instead
MS 2003 Applied Chemistry, expecting A/B but got D instead
HE 191 Principles of Economics, expecting B/C but got D instead

For the above subjects in Year 1 or Year 2, I thought maybe my expectations were different from the examiners’ marking standards. However for Year 3 subjects, there were really unreasonable grades for some subjects.

MS 3030 HRM, expecting A but got B+
MS 8005 Effective Communication Skills, expecting A but got B+ again! When I got marvelous grades for my assignments, what is the reason for me to be marked down to B+?
MS 3005 Materials Aspect in Design, all my group members got A except me, a B+, why? Why? Why?
MS 4002 Quality Control, I remember explaining to one of my friend some concepts in this subject before the exam and relevant questions did come out. My friend scored better than me when her level of understanding was not as good as me. Why? Why? God, are you showing favouritism?
HW 310 Professional Communication, a large percentage made up of oral presentation which I got A-, why is my final grade B+?

Throughout the entire process of working hard to improve my grades, my grades did improve from second year to third year. But I simply did not have the luck to get A. Due to this reason, my chance of getting second upper grew thin until it was quite unlikely. I thought to myself, perhaps there was an underlying problem which I did not realize and did not solve which cause the problem to keep happening. But I was so frustrated, it seems like second upper was never meant to be mine. If that is so, why am I not worthy of second upper?

Unless the LORD builds the house,
Its builders labor in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
The watchmen stand guard in vain
Psalms 127:1

Perhaps one question I have to ask myself is that, throughout the entire quest for my honours, have I allowed God to lead me? Or did I walk away from God, fighting my own path? Perhaps God is using this scenario to show that if He is not leading my life, I can get nowhere. Is that so?

Let’s summarize. Why am I being “shortchanged” from the results I think I should get?
Is it because A or second upper is never meant for me, and whatever not mine will not be mine? Then I have to ask, why is it not mine?
Is it because God was not taking charge of this area of my life, and that I took charge of my own life and I could achieve nothing more than that?
Any other reasons which I may not be aware of

Let’s consider 2
So how exactly is allowing God to take charge? Actually I should ask myself one important question. To what extent do I agree that good results are given by God? As I search my heart truthfully, this is what whispering in my heart. No, I think good results should be based on how hardworking, how I have worked hard to achieve it. So I am placing human effort above God’s leadership, and in other words, resisting God’s leadership. And I am placing my desire above God’s truth. At this moment when I think why I do not deserve such results and deserve better, my reason is that I want A, I want second upper and I had worked hard for it. My greed for achieving my desire is stronger than willingness to acknowledge the truth above, and I can consider this as resisting God’s leadership. Too bad, God simply can’t take me far when I resist.

Fortunate for me, I got A for my final year project. I could still recall how I work like mad for this project, looking for answers to troubleshoot process problems, taking the tough questions from supervisor, enduring the pressure to work in laboratory even after office hours and after midnight. Thank God he did not shortchange me for this. And I know with second lower, I cannot apply for scholarships to further studies or research but I can still apply for research jobs in companies. At least, God leaves me with a useful weapon to defend myself before the interviewer

“Well, I may not be good at sitting for exams, but I am good at hands-on. I learn a lot of things, including applying theories that I have learnt and looking out for answers to support my observations. This shows that I have a keen interest in research, willing to endure the hard work and spend time to read up. I believe my grade for FYP supports all these.”

Because I Loved You

Enjoy the music! It is a combination of different music instruments.

Yet I will (Vineyard Music)

Thank God.....

1) Thank God that I manage to pass some of my projects to another colleague. I can put more concentration to my project now.

2) Thank God that I got another 2 helpers to help me to do the works.

3) Thank God that I manage to sleep earlier yesterday night.

4) Thank God that God gives me peace to handle the problem.

5) Thank God that I manage to thank Him in this difficult time. Pray that God will help me to know that what is the way that He wants me to go as I am at the cross road now.

For Huanjie

Dear Huanjie
Happy Birthday!
Hope u enjoyed the simple lunch celebration and thanks for the treat!

In this 1 yr plus in the cg, I have been blessed by you. Besides blessing the cg with your culinary skills and treats occasionally, am personally blessed by your friendship.

Your bubbly nature certainly spices things up in the cg =) Have been “blessed” by your jokes and crappiness.,especially when Robert joined in too..wah he ultimate :p..But is indeed enjoyable spending time tog with u and the rest .

You are someone who is real and open with your thoughts, feelings and easy on your personality. I believed that’s why you make people comfortable too. During the softer side when u shared your thoughts on certain issues and school matters, despite your struggles and busyness, I am heartened that you always choose to put God first.

Thanks for being a sweet brother in your own ways. You have certainly grown as time passes with the heart for missions and the desire to be a shepherd. Look forward to growing together and I pray that u will continue to grow in his will and do even greater things for Him! Be challenged and confident that God will use u greatly!

confused.......

Yesterday and today I am busy in sending resume. I have sent out resume to those organizations:
1) NLB
2) RP
3) TY LIN International

However, I kept asking myself, " What do I want actually??" Do I intend to continue to stay in civil engineering line ? or my calling is in somewhere else?? Actually, I plan to do some design jobs to save up some money for further studies. It maybe maths or chinese.....Plan to use that as a entry vehicle for my mission trip....(Think too much.....)..:P

Pray that God will reveal to me what is the thing that He wants me to do. I am in searching path and I really need His guidance and strength to persevere through and learn something about myself in my career and my potential in God's gifting.

久石譲-風の谷のナウシカ (風の伝説)

Another good anime theme "Feng1 Zhi1 Gu3" by Joe Hisaishi. I love beginning part of the theme, it really move my spirit....

Huanjie has matured in God

Think Huanjie has grown in His commitment towards God over the past year. I remembered asking him whether he is able to take on the role of UA (Unit Administrator) recently and he agreed willingly despite his hectic teaching schedule. So far he has done an excellent job by faithfully helping out in the adminstration for the unit in events like church camp and missions conference. His Hope resource duty also took up quite some time from him but his spirit is always so sweet in his service towards people. Sometimes, he need to stay back till 5plus on Sunday to do stock checks on books and cds, this is very tiring for him but he does it without complaining. He understands that he serves the church because of God's love for him.

Another significant growth for Huanjie is accountability. He has learnt to ask for advices in many areas of his life, may it be teaching, relationship, personal life or ministry, he is faster to seek advices from me compared to last time when he just made decisions on his own. He shared to me openly about his life which allowed me to see the whole picture and give perspectives in his situation. We are able to see clearer where God is leading him through our sharing and discussion often times.

Last of all, I want to thank Huanjie for his friendship. He has been a dear friend to me and I appreciate his thoughfulness these 3 years plus that I know him. He is a sensitive brother who understands how I am feeling and tries his best to support me. Though there are times he does not know how to respond when I am feeling down/angry, I appreciate his loyalty and commitment towards me at times that I fail. Thank God for you, my brother.

Joe.Hisaishi月光星願2003鋼琴演奏會-ToToRo

This totoro theme song is composed by Joe Hisashi. When you are sad, listen to this song you will feel happier. Now sit back relax and enjoy...

Affirmation to Huanjie

Yeah.....yesterday was our dear brother HJ's birthday!!!!! Think his family has celebrated for him. How was it bro? I believe that you must have been blessed greatly by your family.

Just want to spend a few moments to affirm this wonderful brother in my life. I started to know HJ through Yueh Siang, as he was learning Malay with him at that time. At the first sight, I thought he was a very strict person. Until the time that I came to know Christ, then I started to get to know this brother better.

One of the most memorable time we spent together is we went to eat KFC in the afternoon and watched the movie together (sorry bro, I forgot the name of the movie already). At that time we started to share more deeper thing like our conversion story, our family,etc.......

Another unforgetable event was during last month we had our CG at East Coast. At that time we spent little time at the beach, we sat down and start to share how have we been throughout that week. I was amazed and inspired by his openess to me, he shared some of his struggle in his life and I truly sensed his openess and humble before God.

HJ actually is a filial son, a faithful brother, a joyful servant of God. He cares a lot about his family. He will spend every effort to bless the friends around him in any circumstances. I believe that every single one of us who know him can sense his sincerity by becoming his friend.

HJ, I want to pray for you that in this coming year, God will continue to reveal to you His plan and vision to you. Rest assured that His spiritual gift to you will be greatly utilized by you. I believe that the kingdom of God will rejoice over your works for God. Jiayou:)

Tired....Tired....Tired......

Today, another war just stopped. Finally can take a fresh breadth and write something here. Truly, everyday I come to office, I don't know what will happen to me. Need to take many responsibility, need to take note of here take note of that. Sometimes I really want to shout to the Lord, "Hey, I only got one brain and two hands, can you let me off?'

Frankly speaking, it is quite hard to give thanks to the Lord when you are taking the stress from different parties. Indeed, I really want to entertain every request or task that they give to me. However, I have my priority to take. I cannot tackle everything at the same time.

Sometimes I think that I am not capable in this line, thinking of changing the line all the while. But what can I do? After some thoughts, I think that my passion is in teaching. But I cannot handle children very well. Still I enjoy impart my knowledge to younger generation.

Just now have a tele-conversation with Eileen. She said she got lobang and asked me to join her previous company. I will have further discussion with her tonight.

Dengue cases in S'pore reach epidemic levels - Dengue Hotspots

Hey guys, fyi.

According to The Health Ministry, a band of 256 to 378 cases a week warrants an orange alert, equivalent to a warning signal, while epidemic levels are reached when more than 378 cases occur in a week.

E-week 21 : 20 May to 26 May 2007
Total number of cases : 259

Location of Active Clusters* (as at 30 May 07)

http://app.nea.gov.sg/cms/htdocs/category_sub.asp?cid=239

Jln Songket / Hougang St 21 (Blk 220, 221, 222 ) / Aroozoo Ave / Surin Ave / Jln Samarinda / Jln Mastuli / Jln Pelikat
Balestier Rd / Martaban Rd / Pegu Rd / Minbu Rd / Mandalay Rd / Jln Ampas
Admiralty Rd West
Akyab Rd / Mandalay Rd / Bassein Rd
Lor 14 Geylang
Lor 1 Toa Payoh (Blk 161, 700)
Khalsa Cres
Boon Lay Drive (Blk 167, 168, 170, 266)
Rowell Rd (Blk 639, 640, 641) / Veerasamy Rd (Blk 634, 637)
West Coast Rd (Blk 514, 515, 518, 519)
West Coast Dr (Blk 509, 510, 511)
Lor 8 Toa Payoh (Blk 213, 214, 220, 222)
Bedok Nth Ave 3 (Blk 133) / Bedok Nth St 2 (Blk 132)
Bedok Reservoir Rd (Blk 612)
Ho Ching Rd (111, 112, 116, 119) / Tao Ching Rd (Blk 103, 113) / Yung Sheng Rd (Blk 182)
Cassia Cres (Blk 28) / Pine Cl (Blk 1) / Jln Lima
Sims Dr (Blk 51)
Lor 7 Toa Payoh (Blk 1, 2) / Lor 6 Toa Payoh (Blk 52)
Tampines St 21 (Blk 202, 209)
Tampines St 81 (Blk 813) / Tampines Ave 4 (Blk 815)
Jurong West Ave 1 (Blk 425, 426)
Boon Keng Rd (Blk 22)
Whampoa Rd (Blk 110, 111, 112)
Moonstone Lane (Blk 36) / Topaz Rd
Jln Kukoh (Blk 2, 3, 8)
Lor 40 Geylang / Lor 42 Geylang
Serangoon Ave 4 (Blk 227, 229) / Serangoon Central (Blk 255)
Pasir Ris St 11 (Blk 110)
Sims Dr (Blk 54, 56)
Balestier Rd
Bendemeer Rd (Blk 47, 48)
Lor 5 Toa Payoh (Blk 38, 44)
Tampines St 11 (Blk 103, 113, 114)
Lor Ah Soo (Blk 139, 145)
Rivervale Dr (Blk 121A) / Sengkang East Ave (Blk 122C)
Lor 4 Toa Payoh (Blk 62) / Lor 5 Toa Payoh (Blk 57)
Tampines St 81 (Blk 888A, 889)
Lor 1 Toa Payoh (Blk 236, 238) / Toa Payoh Nth (Blk 200)
Teck Whye Lane (Blk 108, 110)
Yio Chu Kang Rd
Lor 20 Geylang / Jln Suka
Lor 24A Geylang / Geylang Rd
Bowmont Gdns / Siglap Plain
Sim Dr (Blk 62, 701)
Tampines St 11 (Blk 109, 111)
Tampines St 11 (Blk 101)
Hougang Ave 1 (Blk 169, 171)
Yishun St 81 (Blk 817, 820)
Canberra Dr
Kg Arang Rd
Ardmore Pk
West Coast Walk
Foch Rd
Sims Dr (Blk 60)
Mcnair Rd (Blk 119)
Jln Senang / Senang Cres
Bedok Reservoir Rd (Blk 624, 627)
Bishan St 12 (Blk 111)
Compassvale Link (Blk 269D) / Compassvale Lane (207D)

For daily updates, u can refer to http://www.dengue.gov.sg/

Keep a check on your houses even if they are not active clusters ya!

Reach Taiwan safely

I have reached Taiwan safely already, staying in gala hotel in Taipei. Think I will not be able to visit the Hope Taipei church already cos we have some programmes over the weekend. Will update you all more if got time to surf the net. God bless. =)

CG this Friday!

Hi all!

Been long since i posted anything.. lost in the apartment among the photos and flowers already.. hehe. Today is the last day of the shoot! Yeah! Thank God things have gone relatively well and God indeed blessed with strength and efficiency! Thank you all for your prayers and encouragement, especially He Bing, Sharon and Liyi who smsed me often. And ST who brought me and my colleagues dessert and cooling tea!

This week's CG, let's meet at 730-8pm at Changi Airport for CG. We'll fetch Liyi. :) Think her flight is arriving around 6+pm. Pray for her that her job will be completed in time and her return to SG will not be delayed!

We'll discuss the 1 Corinthians Chapter 14 on the Holy Spirit, hehe.. after the series of questions we had on Sunday, it'll be a great time to delve deeper into the Word and learn more about the Holy Spirit! Especially reminding ourselves of the power and the miracles of the Pentecost. :) Let's read the chapter over QT this week and come to share our insights!

See you soon!

Hope Taipei Address?

Hi Liyi or Yuanxiang,

I am flying off to Taipai tomorrow morning. Anyone of you can post the address of Hope Taipei on the blog? Thought of visiting them this Sunday morning before I fly back to Singapore.

And for the cg,

I am bringing my laptop to Taiwan so let's keep connected through the cg blog.

I will be back this Sunday evening.

See you all soon!

Shenteng

Heart warming story ^^,

One day, when I was a freshman in high school,
I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.
His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books..
I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday?
He must really be a nerd."
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.
As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.
They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.
His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him
He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes
My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.
As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. "
They really should get lives.
" He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!"
There was a big smile on his face.
It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.
I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.
As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before.
He said he ha d gone to private school before now.
I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.
We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.
He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.
I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends
He said yes.
We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.
Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.
I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!
" He just laughed and handed me half the books.
Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends.
When we were seniors we began to think about college.
Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke.
I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.
He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship.
Kyle was valedictorian of our class.
I teased him all the time about being a nerd.
He had to prepare a speech for graduation.
I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak
Graduation day, I saw Kyle.
He looked great.
He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.
He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.
He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.
Boy, sometimes I was jealous!
Today was one of those days.
I could see that he was nervous about his speech.
So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!"
He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.
" Thanks," he said.
As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began
"Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.
Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends...
I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.
I am going to tell you a story."
I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.
He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.
He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.
He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.
"Thankfully, I was saved.
My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."
I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.
I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.
Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.
Never underestimate the power of your actions.
With one small gesture you can change a person's life.
For better or for worse.
God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.
Look for God in others.


~"Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."
There is no beginning or end.. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift.~

Hey Brother,
dun be discouraged or stressed out.. hope this verse encourages you..

Psalm 27:5-7 (NIV)

5 For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock.

6 Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me;
at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the LORD.

7 Hear my voice when I call, O LORD; be merciful to me and answer me.

you are very courageous and honest to tell your boss the situation.. if i were you.. i might have continued to struggle and in the end produce lousy results..
Have faith in God that He will carry you through this :)

Share with you my situation.. hehe..
Just now before lunch, my senior told me again (note: again) that he did not see much effort put in my work.. but I tot i have placed more importance and effort in my work already. Guess i cannot meet his standard. I haven on the TV since i enter my hotel room, all because I dun wan to TV to distract me and affect my work. and i was on schedule for all the submissions.. But yet... he says I dun seem to be putting effort in my work. sigh.. I was a bit disappointed and spitefully said that he can say whatever he wants to say. i bet the evaluation is going to be very poor. But its okay la.. God knows the level of effort i have put in..

A decision.......

I just emailed to my boss to request for withdrawal of 2 projects in my hands. As I could not handle 3 projects + 1 upcoming one in my hand. 3 projects they need my strong commitment. I need to spend more time in them but I cannot cope them because the things are too much for me to handle.

My architect expressed her dissatisfaction to me, my senior complain that how come I never pay attention to his projects, contractor from different side chase me for this and chase me for that, I feel tore apart by them.

Jesus, help me to see your purpose in this situation, I pray that my decision to ask for withdrawal of some projects is correct in your eyes. Lord, give me strength to tackle different challenges and people around me, let me see that they also need you very much. Thank you Lord, Amen!!!

Taiwan Snack

hey guys, here are some photos of one of my favourite Taiwan snack!


Are you able to guess what is it?


Clearer photo of the snack!


Bought from this stall!


See the plastic bag and paper bag are so cute.. haha..

Have you guessed what it is? the answer is......................*drumroll*

Fried Sweet Potato! haha
a cheap and satisfying snack that can be found in Hsin Chu... i tink other parts of Taiwan should have too.. hehe..

My prayer requests this week

1) My father told me that he was diagnosed that he got high blood pressure. Pray that God will protect his health and let him not to get angry easily.

2) My works is getting hectic and highly stressed. Pray that God will give me peace to handle the jobs. Also, pray that I will have a good solitude time with Him so sort out my career path.

3) If I got another job offer, please pray for me that my pay will be increased to at least 200 dollars. My financial situation is getting more and more tight.

My turn to go taiwan next week

Good to hear from you, liyi. Hopefully can meet you in Taiwan when I go next Tues. Looking forward to the trip as this is my first time to Taiwan.

For cg this week, we will be having combined cg with nic's cg in fmc room 303 at 730pm on thursday. We will be celebrating Huanjie's birthday over steamboat at my place this friday night at 730pm.

Do pray that I can spend my time wisely as I have a lot of freedom now that my parents are in USA. They will only be back on 15 August.

Hsin Chu

Thank God for the safe flight to Hsin Chu, Taiwan :)
we are put in the same hotel as last year.. yeah! I have a queen size bed and a single bed in my room.. its quite big.. got a mini hi-fi set.. listening to music as i'm typing right now.. relax mood.. haha.. a pity that none of my frenz is able to come.. if not free accommodation for them.. haha.. Hsin Chu is only an hour or more so from Taipei by train.. pray for me that our work will be smooth and efficient so that we will be able to go to Taipei this weekend! hee.. thanks!

please post all prayer requests on the blog okay! i wud like to be able to pray for you guys! Take care!

My friend Jason's matrimony

Last Saturday I joined my NTU friend Jason's Holy Matrimony in City Harvest Church at Jurong West. Jason is one of my best friend in NTU times. We actually suffer as a study group and I actually know him through one of the cell group of CHC in NTU. That was the first time I started to know about church.

He is the first person, together with Yueh Siang, planted the seed in my heart when I was a pre-believer. At that time, I just mentioned to Yueh Siang that I hoped to know what Bible is about, 2 weeks later I received a NLT bible from both Yueh Siang and Jason. That bible I have kept until now.

As a friend (now cum brother-in-Christ), he actually demonstrate to me how he secured in his identity in God. Actually he does not have any interest in his major and sometimes he failed the subject terribily, but he did not give up himself and continue to explore himself in other area, such as music ( he is the guitarist in CHC). At the same time we also strive together to pass the exam.

Now Jason has his own buisiness in IT industry and I am glad that he has settled down by starting a family. I wish him all the best in his career continue to glorify God's name with his talents.

Below is the photos we took in his matrimony:

Pic 1: After attacking the food, we took a photograph together with the "results" that we have:P

Start from left, Rachel, Cheng Mei , my NTU civil school mate(If I do not spell wrongly), Yueh Siang and myself.

Pic 2: Together with the bride and bridegroom: Start from left, me, Yueh Siang, Rachel, Cheng Mei and her husband Tommy, Jason and his wife Angeline (whose Jason call her "Larling").

A tiring week

This week has been a tiring week for me. Indeed I attended more than 5 meetings this week. It caused me do not have time to do my work.

Actually it was quite challenging to meet different people requirements. I do not know a lot of things but I still need to handle them. My client, contractors, even my supervisor expect me to know everything. I understand that because I am on board already, so it shall be no excuse to me to really say "don't know" as it does not reflect my company's image well.

Thank God that He sustained me through, He helps me to see the thing in more positive manner. He gave me the opportunity to learn the new things and let me see different kind of people.

I think this is the first time I faced such a great challenge and I pray that God will strengthen my heart and give me peace so that I will not be a burden to my supervisor and my boss but a good helper to them.

District Mission Night

Hi! Just a reminder that the district missions night is on this Friday (18/5) 730pm in nexus.

For the east coast thingy, I have shepherding on Sat morning so cannot make it. Btw, Liyi, your roller blade is still in my car, remember to take from me this friday night.

Rollerblade

Hey guys! anyone keen to go rollerblading this coming saturday morning? around 10 am meet at ECP...

Spiderman 3

Hello!

just putting the information on the blog so that you guys will remember.. hehe..

We'll be watching Spiderman 3 tomorrow (Wednesday) at 8pm. Venue: Cathy Cineleisure.

Anyone of you will be reaching early? can have dinner together with Lilin..

thank God

thank God... finally cleared all my exam markings... just cleared... must clear it becoz i going for reservist on mon (yes... a few hours later) for a week so need to clear the papers asap for the students to check... during this period i must thank God for:

1) helpful colleagues who volunteered to take cover my classes during my absence,
2) helpful colleague who is willing to go into my classes to check the papers and ammend the marks according if needed,
3) finishing in time to pass the marked scripts to colleagues in the morning before heading off to camp, and
4) your prayers.

if you dun mind, i need some prayer requests for my reservist period:
1) safe and enjoyable time in camp,
2) connect and relate deeper with people,
3) identify and reach out to the open hearts (and if needed, heal the broken hearted... always got one or two during incamp) ,
4) sort out my thoughts.

i always find reservist a good place to feel for the lost again... so do pray that the HS would prompt this in me again and share accordingly to the reception level.

ok... need to go and pack in camp stuff before catching a little nap... have a good week ahead :)

Combined CG this Fri

Dear all,

We will be having combined caregroup 730pm this friday with Nic's cg at ministry house.

Recently, I saw an interesting scroll in a shop and bought it. I have typed parts of the content of the scroll below, thought it may be helpful to some of us at work. God bless! =)

Christian ways to reduce stress

1) Pray
2) Go to bed on time.
3) Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed.
4) Say No to projects that won't fit into your time schedule, or that will compromise your mental health.
5) Delegate tasks to capable others.
6) Simplify and unclutter your life.
7) Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.
8) Pace yourself. Spread out big changes and difficult projects over time; don't lump the hard things all together.
9) Take one day at a time.
10) Separate worries from concerns. If a situation is a concern, find out
what God would have you do and let go of the anxiety. If you can't do anything about a situation, forget it.
11) Live within your budget;don't use credit cards for ordinary purchases.
12) Do something for the Kid in you everyday.
13) Get enough rest.
14) Eat right.
15) Get organized so everything has its place.
16) Write down thoughts and inspirations
17) Everyday, find time to be alone.
18) Having problems? Talk to God on the spot. Try to nip small problems in the bud. Don't wait until it's time to go to bed to try and pray.
19) Make friends with Godly people.
20) Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a good "Thank you Jesus."
21) Laugh
22) Take your work seriously, but not yourself at all.
23) Develop a forgiving attitude. (Most people are doing the best they can)
24) Be kind to unkind people (They probably need it the most)
25) Sit on your ego.
26) Talk less; listen more.
27) Slow down.
28) Do something you like everyday.
29) Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe.
30) Every night before bed, think of one thing you are grateful for that you’ve never been grateful for before.

In a fix

This thing happened yesterday. Faced a difficult situation.

One of my colleague, A left work early ard 3plus. He informed us but not boss. Around 5pm,boss called looking for him. My senior then contacted A to let him know boss looked for him and asked him to return call.Not forgetting to explain why he was out of office. A asked senior to explain that he was sick and hence left early to see doc. Meanwhile A said he will sms boss too.

A few of us were around. Senior decided i am the best person to inform boss of this "lie". Why me?

1)Senior was avoiding boss as well. In fact, everyone dreads meeting boss. Senior was so stressed yest that he hung up his phone the whole day to avoid calls from boss. And i found out later, he even skipped lunch to do his work. alas.

2)Precisely bcos i can't lie and i would not want to, hence i am the best person to say and won't be doubted.

3) Some strange idea that i am boss's pet which i am not lah.

I knew it was wrong to lie and A was wrong not to inform boss that's he leaving early. Yet we could understand why. Is a long story but essentially boss and A are prejudiced against each other. If boss found out, he has more grounds to pick on A.

Honestly, i see reasons in covering for A though i know is lying. Just felt dui4 bu4 qi3 God. I was in a fix . I prayed in the lift. I knew more or less i would cover up.Asked God to help me and forgive me.

Thankfully, boss had someone with him in the office, so i quickly went into the office to let him sign my stuff and left quickly. I didn't want any chance of him asking me and i decided not to say anything also."Relieved".

Went back to office and my colleagues asked if i said anything. I said no chance. Thank God!! cos it turned out that A smsed boss that he left at 3plus. Senior called me to inform me so that i can sing the same tune. But guess what, i left my hp in the office. So if i were to lie, the timing would be different and boss would know i lie. Phew!! God saves !

End of story? i wish.

Soon after, boss called me. Went to see him and the first thing he asked, where's A?
Obviously he knew but i guess he wanna test me. Ok, i have to sing the same tune then.

Me: Eh, A smsed u rite..
Boss: yes, but only after i looked for him. why didn't he inform earlier? did he inform u all where he is gg?
Me : Yes.
Boss: so where?
Me: doc. he said not well.
pause...
Boss: where's senior? can't get him the whole day.
me: oh..he got statement ( this was not rehearsed but i had to cover..can't say he purposely avoiding your calls rite..)

I have to admit that there is certain differential treatment among us. I forsee more of such things happening.

I know is wrong to lie but it seemed that covering up for one another is like the best way at this current state of condition. Team morale is low. I see passive agression towards boss.

Nowadays, teammates come to me asking if i will see boss, pass me this ,pass me that..I also dread seeing boss and there is so much i can do as well.

There ought to be a better way in handling all these isnt it? teach me how God. Ppl are leaving and i wonder why can't boss see anything ."exasperated"

Teahouse this Sunday?

Guess we will stick with Spiderman 3 on 16 May (Wed) , Joel asked whether we want to join their cg at teahouse at tanjong pagar this Sunday afternoon. We can invite our friends to see whether they are interested.

Shortest meeting in sports school

We had our weekly thursday morning meeting at 8am today and it is a record breaking short meeting cos only a few short announcements. We ended the meeting at 810am. I like sports school meetings cos they never exceed 1 hr when the principal holds the meeting. I was able to have some free time to set the mid year exam paper in the morning. It is amazing that all of us submitted the final draft only today, and tomorrow is the exam. Thank God for efficiency.

This morning..........

3/5/2007, 615am, weather: good ( I think so, outside so dark, very hard to see....)

When I get up from bed, I took a deep breath, then I start to settle down my heart. When I am praying to God and enjoy His presence for a short moment, my heart sense peace from Him. I start to thank God that He let me wake up every morning and let me breath the fresh air. He also let me taste the life with different kind of people. Sometimes it is tough, I still thank Him that he let me do lives with those people around me.

Today the whole morning I will be having meeting with PUB. Pray that the meeting will be run smoothly. Pray that I will have wisdom from God to priotize my time to the things that I need to do first.

Thank God for His presence everyday. I enjoy do life with Jesus as well.

Nic's CG watching Spiderman 3 this Sunday

Nicholas's cg is watching this sunday afternoon (6/5) and they are asking us whether we want to join. Joel is booking the tickets so let me know soon. Thanks!

Updates on spider man 3

Dear all,

Confirmed list as of now :

1)Huanjie
2)Hoeping
3)Shenteng
4)Peiru
5)Liyi
6)Lydia
7)Myself
8)Chukai?

If no objection, can we set the date on 16th May(Wed)?
Pls ask ur friends if they wish to watch tog, and a confirmation by latest this sunday (6th May) so that we can book early and prayerfully get good seats?

Thank God for u, Hoeping!

Dear bro,

It's been a great blessing to have you in our midst and known you in my life! Like what PR has shared, your conversion and zealousness in your new found faith has been such as encouragement to all of us back then in NTU. hee. Well, you still are :)

3 areas that you strike me which I can learn from you as well:

1) Your openess and vulnerability

You never fail to be open about your life and real with your thoughts and feelings. Is not easy I feel. Be it small things or big ones, you always readily share with us and sometimes i wonder, without u, the cg would be rather distant =p keke..Guys are usually less open but you prove otherwise. Even this trait is my weakness. heh.

I remembered there were couple of cgs where you shared your difficulties in work and personal struggles. There was once you really broke down. i was stunned yet touched. Through it all, i am glad you preserved to see how God is moulding you and i had a deeper understanding of you too :)


2) Faithfulness & initative
Be it weekly smses for prayer requests, ministries or morning calls for me ( hee thanks bro!), you display initative and faithfulness. You are also a very faithful friend. Often, you will find time to visit your old friends back in hometown. Last year Kluang trip was very enjoyable bcos of your hopsitality and friends! Chuanbiao, Zhengkang,Yuxin and Serwei must have been blessed by your friendship and hence they were readily to host us :)

3) Love God and people
A bro who enjoys reading the word of God,
A bro who seeks greatly to bring his lost friends come to know God,
A bro who enjoys spending time with people and getting to know them deeper,
A bro who is undergoing trying circumstances but want to keep his eyes on God.
A bro who desires to do great things for God.

Thanks for showing care and concern about my life every now and then. Thanks for checking on me almost everyday when i had my wisdom tooth surgery.
Thanks for lending me books when I have run out of them. hee. I enjoyed those reading club sessions.
Thanks for sharing your heart and thoughts with us.
Thanks for ever serving so readily.
You are appreciated much :)

I prayed that you will continue to let God mould you and be the center of your life. Don’t undermine your experiences for some of them are just undergoing pruning so that they can blossom!

Look forward to growing together in Christ-likeness!

Enjoy these pics filled with much love from us =p