A summary of my week

This week has been a stressful week for me. The main thing I worry about is my work. I have been delaying the job for one week. Although my boss did not say much about the deadline, I still feel guilty over my lost of credit to my boss. I have promised him to hand in one of my submission on last Wednesdaybut I fail to do so. Since I start the job, I pray that God will let me be a great helper to my boss. But now it seems that I am a big burden to my boss. It has been 3 weeks now but I still struggling with only one project. Whenever I meet difficulties in my current project, all my past failure in my previous work will appear in my mind.

However, thank God for His faithfulness, He helped me to complete the project by today and I am learning new software to prepare myself for the next project. I am quite nervous and afraid that I will not do a good job for God. I have less confidence in this new project.

The rest of the days were quite ok. I manage to watch the movies "The Secret" with some of the brothers and sisters in the church. Personally I love the story and the plot very much. I think Jay Chou has the potential to be a good movie director.

Just now during the time of CG, I actually want to share something about the salvation of our people around us. But I did not have the courage to share it out. I am afraid that I will say the wrong thing and made the whole atmosphere become very weird. After the CG, I felt a bit down because of this. I kept asking myself,"Why I don't have the courage and faith to say it out? What happen to me?". But I know that I cannot let this negative thoughts dwell into my heart. I must overcome it by the power of Christ.

Saturday evening I have a gathering with some of my secondary school friends. It is at Coastal Sand in Pasir Ris. Actually I am quite reluctant to go. This is because I do not have the courage to face the question like, " How have you been doing? What is your salary? Did your boss increase your pay? When will you get married? When will you get your 1st house?" I know that it is not biblical to think lowly upon myself. But I really don't dare to face them because I am so called "Insignificant" to them. During the praise and worship time, I pray to God and asked God what to do in this situation. God speak to me that, "Remember you are the servant of Christ." at that time I did not understand why I have this impression. Just now I read devotion and this verse got my attention. It is Galatians 5:13, "For you have been called to live in freedom – not freedom to satisfy your sinful nature, but freedom to serve one another in love.” Is that God wants me not to think too much about my "insignificant" among my classmates but "to serve them in love"? I believe it by faith and I want to apply it during my meeting with them.

In conclusion, indeed in a lot of areas I need God's love and strength to help me to deal with. I really have not much confidence to face the challenges in my life. Pray that I am assured by my identity in Christ and let me trust in Him more and more in overcoming those obstacles.